Hey guys I'm back once again and guess what? I am tired! But unfortunately I have to try and finish up a report which is due like 2 days later and I haven't got the time to start yet, which simply means I can't sleep. Which means I will be a freak tommorrow morning when I go to school. And I ensure you, yes, ensure, that I will be feeling DEPRESSED because I am not allowed to sleep. I think if this goes on I will go crazy. Literally crazy. Lol. Maybe not. Maybe yes. What do you think? I am feeling so tired now and I WANT TO SLEEP. NO. I NEED TO SLEEP. I was really hoping someone would shoulder the responsibility of helping me to sleep but it is impossible.
I need sleep. Sleep. Sleep. Sleep. Sleep. Sleep. Sleep. I have been sleep deprived for the past 2 weeks. It's really serious.
Anyway, as promised, this post is gonna be a long one, so let's start with last saturday! Well, last saturday was really a great day, because I was looking forward to Tong's help out session in the morning, only to find out that it has been cancelled due to the TWSS public concert on friday. Luckily, very luckily, Mau Cheung was not aware of the cancellation too, and both of us ended up in our sec school snapping pictures. Before I show you the pictures, Mau Cheung actually suggested that I wear my jc shirt to school as he was going to wear his jc shirt too. Lol. And he wore a hcjc shirt. HCJC leh. When he is in JJC. Very interesting! Of course, I wore my yjc orientation shirt to school. Ahh... it has been some time since I actually wore that shirt. Brings back one the greatest times I had in my life. =D
So here it goes, presenting to you, MC and KING BYLE in their JC shirts! -_-:
It was taken in my secondary school. And we actually took down our 4A class sign that was 2 years old already and took a photo with it!
It's all good fun. I'm proud to be in 4A back in 2005. There will be only one 4A, class of 2005. And I'm glad I'm part of it!
Don't you think I look like I had water retention in my face? LACK OF SLEEP LAH.
So, moving on, we actually took pictures here and there and it was lunchtime then. Since both MC and THE KING was hungry, we decided to go lot 1 for lunch. Wait, was it lot 1? Yes it is. We went to food culture and I ate curry chicken noodles while he ate: UNHEALTHY, OILY AND FRIED FOOD, LACK OF CARBOHYDRATES AND LOTS OF FATTY ACIDS IN IT. Chicken cutlet. And I had a hard time eating my curry noodles because the gravy WILL STAIN (I know cause I ate it before) and it was too hot. Sometimes I don't really like eating stuff that are spicy AND hot at the same time because my lips will become very red and I don't want it to happen. Anyway, after lunch, it was afternoon and I joined Sam and MC for a studying session.
You might wonder why would I want to go for an 'A' level studying session when I'm in poly. Well, what is wrong with it in the first place? Since I am free on that day, why not take the oppotunity to see how A level syllabus is like? Although I've been to the first three months, the coverage on what they are going to teach is very little. Well, nobody's going to say anything because it's the 1st 3 mths. Also, if you have read my previous post, you will realise that I have been mentioning that I am getting slow nowadays due to the lack of thinking for my brain.
So I went to study with them and tried some maths questions. Surprsingly, I managed to solve most of the questions and the questions were very interesting to work with. And it's 'A' level standard! Its really cool to be able to understand the questions, solve them, and feel a sense of accomplishment when you write the final answer down onto the piece of paper. Well, I did alot of questions on differentiation and functions. Guess 'A' level differentation is not that bad after all. I can't say for functions because I actually learnt it during the 1st 3 mths. Haha. And throughout the study session I actually learnt some facts about chemistry from Sam, on why transition metals have colour and in what situation will it become colourless. However, I'm not very good with my chemistry during secondary school, so it's kinda hard to understand actually!
Yeah. Snippits of what I've done during the fruitful study session, and my good old calculator that helped me out so much during my exams back in my school days!
Bascially, that was what happened on saturday. There was supposed to be more photo taking but unfortunately, Sam and MC's handphone died due to the lack of battery power. Both at the same time somemore. -_-
Alright, when I look at the time just now. It is already 1pm. And I HAVE NOT STARTED ON MY REPORT YET! And I need sleep. So as I promised, this is a long post right? I actually wanted to post about swimming stuff but I guess time is asking me to end this post and go do my report. There is still quite a number of things I wanted to blog. Sigh, there is school tommorrow somemore. I think I will just doze off during lectures. Lol.
So this is the end of this post. OK, almost. To MC and Sam, it's been a great day on saturday! Thanks for the functions test MC, I got 14 marks for it too. =D
Cya and have a great night guys! Sleep well. Don't follow my footsteps. =D
This post has existed since 7/23/2007 11:55:00 pm
It's 1.46am and I need sleep. Seriously.
I think I'm getting deprived of sleep. And I mean REALLY DEPRIVED. It's like, during the weekends, 9 hours of sleep is not enough at all, considering the fact I have to wake up in the morning at 9 plus on saturday to go back to TWSS to do peer teaching.
Speaking of peer teaching during last saturday back at TWSS, its was really great. I mean, although there are only
1 STUDENT, 3 PEER TUTORS,
which makes the ratio of students to peer tutors:
1:3
which means that for every 30 peer tutors in the class, there will ONLY be 10 students. WTH. LOL.
OK la, I was late. Really late actually I think. (like, 1 hour 40 minutes late?) But the only student in the class was hardworking. She managed to finish all her maths questions with the help of us of course. OF COURSE. I'm so EVIL. =D Anyway, it was A maths, and after the peer tutoring session, I felt that I kinda miss doing A maths. I was quite surprised that I actually remembered how to do the maths problems considering that it was almost 1 and a half years ago since I didn't get to touch maths questions.
And A level maths is interesting! MC actually was doing his maths homework at mac and being the me that I am, I took at look at his questions and started solving it! Yah I know I'm being very random doing the maths questions, but it was interesting. And I did manage to solve a question or two A level standard questions. With the help of James sometimes. Lol.
But it was really cool. I mean, during my secondary school days, I felt so bored when I did my maths questions, however, on saturday, when I did those questions, I kinda feel nostalgic. Haha.
I actually miss doing questions that let my brains have a good workout. Sigh. I guess ever since I went to poly my brain cells have been so relaxed I am beginning to become slow. DIE! And I felt even more tired than secondary school nowadays with all the workload and my brain is not getting any better even though I have gained new knowledge relevant to the industry. Hm....
I am wondering what will be my alternative career path in the future other than FSV related stuff. I mean, I'm sure people do have certain careers that they want to try or go to even if they have a passion for one particular career. Sometimes, I guess a passion for a certain career may not be enough for one to sustain or remain in that career. Especially if the passion is simply overwhelmed by stress or disappointment. I think, for my alternate career path,
I'm gonna be a teacher.
I love to teach actually. I like to interact with different kinds of students and believe it or not, I love asking questions and letting the students have a good thought about it. (For those who actually sat near me during secondary school, you know I SOMETIMES SET QUESTIONS FOR U GUYS TO DO. And it is solvable la. I know my answers. =D) There was once I set my own paper and answered the questions myself. Remember guys? The 'Catholic High' comprehension paper about the passage on BRITNEY SPEARS. LOL!
Well, for those who found it lame, (which was abit lame lah, but its all great fun and memories) I find that it helps in thinking more critically and in-depth for any situation. (Thinking does help you get somewhere sometimes, that is why I feel that I'm getting slower now) So yeah, for me, if I didn't really manage to get my dream career, which is to work in a recording company, I guess I may go into the education industry which is teaching. =D
Hm hm.... anyone has any comments or ideas about it? Well, TAG my box. LOL. I hope my blog won't be dead like last year where really few people read it. LIKE REALLY FEW. Like, 1. Like, me. Yup. And so,
I am so damn tired now. I have alot to say leh and I really didn't feel like stopping but I have to cause I have lessons at 8 in the morning and I'm not looking forward to it. I'm not really looking forward to school now. Cause there is nothing for me to look forward to anyway (except CCA). At least when I studied in secondary school I can get to look forward to my friends and classmates even if the lessons are wayyyy to boring but now there is practically nothing so yeah. I hope I can wake up on time tommorrow.
I can't wait for holidays to come. And lastly,
Do small and nice things, however subtle, make your day? I think for me, yes. =)
This post has existed since 7/17/2007 01:46:00 am
After a long time of working with I N E, a module which makes me go EHHHHH, I finally have the time to sit down, look at the computer screen, move my tired hands (Please console me) and blog. So what am I gonna blog today?
WHAT DO YOU THINK?
YOU THINK WHAT I THINK YOU WOULD THINK. Yes, you got it correct. The updates that I am supposed to blog like 16000000000000000000000000000000 decades ago. What am I currently doing, MY CCA!!!!, and many many small stuff going on around with my friends.
Yeah so firstly, what am I currently doing now? BLOG LAH DUH. DUH DUH DUH. Speaking of DUH, I thought of so many words that are extremely overrated, or used so often that I rather smell my own puke than to hear or say the word. Words such as
LAME.
WHATEVER.
DUH!
OMG.
Sigh. Is that what makes vocabulary? Lol. Anyway, yeah I am currently studying in NP for those who didn't know, and well, I've been going to school for projects. I am very repulsed by that word 'project' or 'projects' cause I have basically been living with THAT WORD ever since I went to that place whereby I will never find happiness in there and people keep saying 'I am doing projects that's why I am busy'. This word sucks. Really. It robs away people's time, eat's up people's relationships and destroys MY GRADES.
Let's MOVE ON!
Secondly, MY CCA! Tell you guys, I like my cca. It has got to be one of the best cca I ever had considering the fact that I only joined 4 ccas in my entire schooling life, which are chior (in primary school), BAND (for 2 years in sec school now you know why it's 2 years only), ELDDS (I love this cca too, I got to know the best juniors in my sec school in this cca, and I miss eldds), and last but not least,
THE VERY FIRST SPORTS CCA I EVER JOINED.
Swimming.
Yeah that's right! NPST (NP SwimTeam) is cool, the seniors are very enthu about it, and the freshies are one of a kind, the only thing being that I'm the only year 2 'freshie' in the freshies list. And let me tell you this is what happened, this is what I found out in the cca:
1) THE SENIORS ARE VERY VERY VERY VERY FAST IN THEIR SWIMMING TIMINGS.
2) THE SENIORS ARE VERY VERY VERY VERY FAST IN THEIR SWIMMING TIMINGS.
3) THE SENIORS ARE VERY VERY VERY VERY FAST IN THEIR SWIMMING TIMINGS.
4) I AM VERY VERY VERY VERY SLOW IN MY SWIMMING TIMING.
5) What the hell?
Anyway, as I was saying, I actually joined swimming only at year 2. Why not year 1? Well, to put it simply, I did not really care much about joining a cca when I first came into poly (read my last post to find out why) and after a while I realised that maybe a cca would help me brighten up my school life only to realise that I may be too late to join a cca halfway through the sem. And I don't know how, suddenly enrolment period came and I decided to join a cca. LOL.
But swimming has always been the sport for me and I guess it would be it. IT. To all freshies, let us all endure the training and one day you WILL realise you have learnt something in life through this cca. =D
Yeah I am beginning to feel my whole body getting tired already while blogging. See the effects of I N E!
AND YES FINALLY THE LAST THING I WANNA BLOG ABOUT TODAY IS ABOUT SMALL STUFF GOING AROUND WITH MY FRIENDS and yeah the small stuff are air molecules going around with my friends wherever they go. What do you expect den? Haha! No it's just me being tired actually. I guess I've blogged alot for today. Actually, if you ask me, I prefer to read LONG POSTS (BIG HINT) so yeah if I read YOUR BLOG by chance it better be a LONG POST. Nah, just joking. In case you think that long blog posts turn me on -_-
Have a great centeury ahead.
This post has existed since 7/09/2007 12:14:00 am
Hey guys, this is my blog, if you ever seen it before, or if you ever remembered, I have left it untouched for a long long time even when I promised to blog more often. Haha. Well, what brings me back today? Hm... many events that triggered me actually. Or rather, the same old events that keep resurfacing over and over again when I didn't want it to. Negative events. Mostly.
Anyway, I dunno why, but I think it's time for me to vomit out everything that I've been swallowing for the past one year plus. Some of you guys may have heard it before, some of you may be 1st timers in listening to what I am about to say. Nevertheless I hope after this ranting and ramblings in this post everything will move on and all these will be thrown away from my life, never to come back again.
Alright, starting from last year, after I had such a great time during the 1st 3 mths in yjc, everthing went downhill since then till the point it has hit ROCK BOTTOM. And I really mean BOTTOM. THE GROUND. THE FLOOR. THE SURFACE. THE.... BUTT. It was really bad. Maybe it is just me. It all started during the one-day orientation in poly. I was very excited, hoping to meet new friends, have a new school life, and feel great and just being myself.
However, the orientation was a disappointment. I felt nothing. I just wanted to do something else that day. And bascially, since then, I felt nothing till this very day. Sad huh? Is it just me?
So yeah, after the orientation, school starts not long after and I thought that things may change since it takes time for me warm up to the people and the course environment. Devastatingly it never happened. People claimed that they were close to one another and united but seriously, I found it rather pretentious. During the 1st semester in year 1 all I hear about during lunch most of the time would be PROJECT WORK, WORK AND WORK. Comon' I know that the projects are important but please IT IS DISTURBING if it happens almost all the time during lunch.
But you know what? It may be disturbing, but I won't feel THAT lousy unless more crappy stuff happens, and IT DID happen. This is the first time I heard people say 'we are enthusastic! and let's organise an outing for the class' and it never happened. Sigh. And after a year of being in the same class, I don't even know what everyone is doing during the holidays, let alone getting to know them well.
And to make things worse, my interests don't click with many people. Maybe it's me. Maybe it's them. And many dissappointing things did happen in school that slowly changed the way I act and behave in school. I began to stone in school. I stopped trying to strike up conversations with my classmates simply because it generally never works. Now, I rather be alone sometimes. I rather be a loner in school than to face them. Group work was never really fun. I feel that I'm totally out of my comfort zone trying to show people that I'm ok. That I am fine with the things and decisions made. Well I gotta get this clear:
I AM NOT OK NOW AND I WHAT I NEED IS CHANGE.
Save me from the nothing I have become in school.
Be it change of people, environment, whatever. I need something to push me ahead and forget about all these. There are actually alot of things I wanna say but I can't sort everyting out in this post. I'm tired of the stuff that is happening over and over again in school. Now, I feel like I am having split personalities, one in school and one outside of school. As long as I'm not in school facing them, I feel great. I feel like doing so many things, crapping around, going up the downward escalator while shouting 'I'm a dumbass!', laughing to madtv and going on budget outings with friends that costs between 0 to 3 bucks. LOL.
*So this kinda concludes what I am feeling now. Yeah. I need to let it all out. It may seem like a small matter to you guys (maybe) but yeah, just asking, anyone having similar problems such as this too? Anyway, after this post, it's really time to move on. This will be history and I will do whatever it takes to find a way back to school life.
Cause I lost my school life long ago, and I really do miss it.
This post has existed since 7/05/2007 11:57:00 pm
